Worry, strive & anxiety have been a part of my life for so long that it seemed normal. I got used to it. I woke in the morning, worried about my bank account. “I need to check it to be sure it’s not overdrawn…again.”
During the day, I became angry when someone was rude, or interrupted me when I was speaking. “Ooo, that really irritates me when she does that!”
So much anxiety about what tomorrow will bring…or Not bring!
Then, one day, a friend noticed that irritated expression on my face, & began to talk to me about it. She went from talking about me, to talking about God. That wasn’t something I expected to happen… But I found myself listening & answering her questions about why I was upset. She seemed genuinely concerned, and that was so different for me, And comforting to me!
Later, I found myself reading the Bible app that I allowed her to add to my phone during this little “talk.”
As I read through the scriptures, the words of Jesus spoke to me, and I found even more comfort as I read.
Soon, I became addicted to that app, looking at it whenever I had some “down-time,” in the doctors’ office, sitting in bed, or whenever I was alone.
Something had changed.
I don’t actually remember when, or where or how. But there is definitely something different going on inside my heart:
- I’m more aware of my finances, so I don’t even need to check my bank account each-and-every day!
- I put my trust in God, because, I know that if I can’t pay a bill, all I have to do is call on Jesus, then call the bill-collector. And things will work out, even if it doesn’t turn out the way I expect.
- I’m calmer, somehow. Things don’t irritate me like thing used to irritate me. “What did she say? That’s crazy!” I’ll say to myself with a laugh.
Jesus has actually made me “light.” He’s made me laugh. In His presence is joy evermore! That secret place is where I want to be every day and every night! ~ Wrapped in His Love!